what should I do? what should I say?

I am not fear of loneliness
how could I when GOD and family, friends ,everybody whose sent by GOD always there by my side

I am not chasing happiness
what should I chase when the happiness itself surrounds me all the time

It just, I can't stand it anymore
to see their broken face
those who suffering from unrequited love

 what should I do? what should I say?


when they try their best to made me happy
and all I can do is pretend so I am not going to hurt any feelings
but still, in the end I am gonna hurt them even more
no matter how hard I tried not too

 what should I do? what should I say?


when they desperately asked
' what do you want? '
' what are you searching for? '
' what are you waiting for? '

how could I say
 'all I want is love that coming from god'
how could I say
'what I am search is imam who can lead me in this life and afterlife'
how could I say
' I am waiting for YOU! the one who already decided by GOD to  became my fate even before I was born'

how could I say that if you are even not here yet?

I know GOD has plans
and 'WAIT!' means the best time is yet to come
so I am gonna wait, patiently

but during all that time
please tell me...

 what should I do? what should I say?